smagi.

Ja sāp zāļu dēļ, nedzer zāles pret sāpēm. Nelīdzēs. Viss ir tavā prātā, apmāni to, un viss būs okey.

Labs vakars, jaunieši.
(Fiziķi 4ever, yeah!)
Man te šovakar tāds whatever uznācis par visu, it kā daru, ņemos, bet ne no sirds, tikai tāpēc ka tā vajag. Daudz ir jāpaspēj līdz 1dienas vakaram, kad gan vairs neko mainīt vairs nevarēs. Bet līdz tam.. vēl jāpacīnās.

Ir izdzerti 2 4ootie ibumetini, lai mazinātu sāpes žoklī (zobārste samocīja mani) un tagad notiek video lādēšana tutrubā (lasīt- youtube), 2. sezona vienai anime, ko skatos. Re kā, tepat aiz stūra 18, bet es vēl ar muļķikiem ņemos. Un kas tad..-kaut kādi varmācīgie trilleri būtu labāki (tie protams arī pa retam noder)? Nebūt ne, anime- viss tas pats, pietam patīkami skatīties (bet tas jau gaumes jautājums), sižets interesants, attiecības starp personāžiem interesantas, situācijas interesantas, aizraujošas, vispār, anime kā tāda- interesanta. Aleluja, nu tad paldies jums, japāņi, ka turpinat zīmēt cilvēkus ar milzīgām acīm, pārāk garām kājām un rokām un nereāli tieviem ķermeņiem. Vismaz man ir ko darīt- skatīties.

Nu ko, H2O uzvārījies, jāuztaisa tēja, jāņem jogurtiņš, vēl jāpārraksta bioloģijas pieraksti un jāiegrimst atkal (jau atkal) zīmējumu pasaulē.

Pagaidām see u later, ienāks kas prātā, iekāpšu te atkal.

;)

and:


Two Heartbeats and the Red Sin

Beyond the red, red dreams shaking...
Beyond the red, red dreams shaking...

How many times have we given up to this stifling pressure?
These feelings with nowhere to go begin to close their eyes

Has that smile with no impurities been lost to cruelty?
I know that we're just passing existences.

Although the unseen wounds are just eating away at my heart
Even now, as I remain in the darkness
Thoughts of you won't stop weighing down my mind.

Beyond the red, red dreams shaking
Beyond the red, red dreams shaking, the two of us had to meet.

Our fates began to turn.
A secret that nobody, nobody knows.
Falling, falling, falling

We can't return things to how they used to be,
No matter how much we slice apart these sins.

Surely...

Still Doll

Hi, Miss Alice.
In your glass eye, what sort of dream,
Are you seeing?
Has it entered your gaze?

Once again my heart has split in two, and is pouring out.
The repaired memories are trapped in the space left behind.

Hi, Miss Alice.
With your fruitful mouth, who are you giving love to, and who
is being cast away?
Is lamented over?

Again, I spin words under a fever.
Even the song I love that cuts the cold, I cannot sing.

Still, you do not answer.


Edit:

Ir tīrais. Ir. Tu neredzi? Acis izmazgā.
Ar acetonu. Sāpēs. Un tad. Tad redzēsi. Ir tīrais, ir.


Edit2:

Castle of Sand

If the white rose petals open one by one
Will the memories from those days revive?
Illuminated by tranquility, the night that makes flowers bloom
Is sweet yet painful and becoming colored
Like following a shining thread, time is quietly flowing
While people stick to the movement of flow and ebb, they are reborn
Your smile is the warmth that melts my chest
Like a faint dream that I had somewhere
Even if the present moment is cut up by the setting sun
Our shadows are overlapping
Endless and far, boundless and deep, like destinies that crossed each other
I grasped it again and again, I lost it again and again, the fact that we were finally able to meet
Like how the sky yearns for the earth, the flowers wait for the rain, and the night falls in love with tomorrow
I yearned so much for the fact that two hearts were one
If we can relieve ourselves from eternal slumber and see each other tonight
Come on, let’s dance in our rondo
Like moving through the passed days, the moon is tender and clouded
And beyond my memories, love overflowed again
If I can walk through your moments for a second time
Then I want to become a shadow and protect you
Even if the blindly blowing wind estranges us
Please don’t forget about believing
An aimless sparkle, a fleeting wavering, like drifting illusions
Even while I wandered, I finally made it to the place that won’t change
Even if the darkness steals away the sun, lies cry to sins, and the past splits apart the future
As if going around to places, I’m certain that I chose this place
Endless and far, boundless and deep, like destinies that crossed each other
I grasped it again and again, I lost it again and again, the fact that we were finally able to meet
Like how the sky yearns for the earth, the flowers wait for the rain, and the night falls in love with tomorrow
I yearned so much for the fact that two hearts were one
If the white rose petals scatter one by one
Will we be dyed by the tender morning?
And if I am reborn and bloom in your chest
Our love will become eternity
In the quietly withering castle
in a thirsty time of change
An ash colored me is just vanishing slowly
Need to die
Gather the stars and building a castle of sand
Where I utter a soft prayer
Ambushed by those footsteps falling into dust, flowing away
Please, someone…